Today was what I consider a wonderful day. The sun was shinning so brightly, my family had smiles on their faces, and so did all the girls at the softball field tonight. The game ended in a tie, but there was really no stress involved, all the girls did wonderful, on both teams and it was all about fun tonight. Sitting in the nice warm sun and watching my husband and daughter, I thought to myself, I couldn't be more blessed. God had put me where he wanted me, for years I tried to figure out why things happen, all the time knowing He had a reason. I still tried to figure it all out. I have finally learned to relax and realize that I am here for the ride and I need to enjoy it. And enjoy is what I have been doing lately.
With the loss of my son almost 12 years ago, my spirits were somewhat broken. As I lay in the hospital bed and for many months afterwards I told everybody that he was much better off with Jesus, as I was not able to take care of a baby that was born that prematurely, and He could. I knew at that time that that was what was best and to this day I never doubt or question what happened. But years later I did question things, even though I knew there was a reason and it wasn't more than I can bare. However, as I sit and look at my life today, all the pieces to my puzzle have fit perfectly together. Without one thing happening, none of what I have now would have ever happened. Even all the way down to keeping a job I absolutely hated for over a year, to eventually meet my husband, it all HAD to happen. And it was His plan, not mine.
Today, I have a wonderful family and honestly could not be any happier. I am somewhere in my life that I thought I would never be, at a place where I thought I never wanted to be. I never wanted to get married, never thoguht about children, and now I am married to a man that I could never love any more than I do and have the smartest most beautiful daughter (in my eyes) in the world. Other than minor things, like my blood pressure, my low blood sugar, my husband's high blood sugar, and all of our allergies, we are all healthy and happy. I can only look up to one person for all of my happiness, and say Thank You.